I’m so lost.

I just got an email from one of my professors saying that I have six absences, and unless I have valid reasons, he has no choice but to fail me. I told him some things that weren’t so far fetched, just sort of twisted time lines and things. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’ve lost all motivation to go to school. I feel like a failure. I don’t know what to do, anymore. I honestly hate school. Nothing about it makes me happy. I hate that I chose morning classes, I hate that I have to write papers, I hate having to pay for an education. I have no will to learn anymore. Or maybe, I just have no will to go to school. I just hate that part of my life. I’ve been wondering if I’m suffering from depression, but I don’t think that’s right. I eat, I smile sometimes, still. I think I’m stressed and school isn’t making it any better. I just feel no reason to go to school other than I’ll never have a job. I just want to bury my head forever and cry. I’m a horrible student. I forget to check my online class, I procrastinate til the 11th hour, I’m always absent, when I get there I wanna leave immediately. I sound like a whiny baby, don’t I?

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